Confession

As I write this entry, I currently feel probably the worst I have ever felt in my entire life. I feel rejected, abused, tortured, unwanted. I’m unsure if you’ve ever felt such emptiness regarding having a “significant other” in your life. But I can’t find one, it’s just hurting me so bad. 99.99% of the time I talk to a guy, they tell me I’m cute, and I’m nice, but they say “you’re not my type”. I have been told this so much that it’s starting to affect my outlook of myself. I have been seriously depressed for the last two weeks, I am slowly becoming convinced that nobody thinks that I’m desirable. I know my self-esteem is at an all time low, and it’s hard for me to find the inspiration to pull me out of this. This entry is sounding more like a desparate plea than an update on my life, I have even considered getting psychological help. I’m ugly, that’s all there is to it.